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by jon epworth

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1.
a cormorant 05:07
always messing around with a forethought before it becomes a real thought always chipping away at the stone before a measure of seed is sewn having your horn blown every time you strike a match isn't always a good thing and these days there's no such thing as a sure thing like yourself even this as lightly as you tread water fills every hole you leave in the sand where gardens cannot grow get a good bead on the beautiful meat bellies wide open to the spreadshot sights you incredible beings you want a chance to redeem burn your existence into a carbon dated postcard to the past and say "hey dad, whaddya think of that?" don't ask why if you don't care anymore don't let on that you may know anymore than anybody else you can see the rising tide with your own red eyes asphalt clouds filter down and fall into your mouth they've nowhere left to go and the great white nom de plume of boredom claims another truckload of hapless victims who can die by the grace of an unseen god or whatever excuse is convincing enough it's a slow motion replay of an impossible future where the winners all die and leave life to the losers and the rattle of chains in the creaking rafters soak up the smoke of the same old disasters
2.
i'm a small cog in a smaller set of gears and perhaps we'll reach a few handfuls of ears but won't you listen to my pretty passing chords i'm a no one in an empty room yeah i should give up and go to bed real soon but won't you listen to my pretty passing chords i could lay down and exemplify all the other tired oxen and the faces of my destiny may go forgotten oh i cannot beg 'til i am sore against the din of bottles smashing to the floor and the people who believe in all my words or at least they say they've listened and they've heard the drunks in front can yell that i'm the greatest i'll just stay at home if that's what fame is but would you listen to my pretty passing chords close your eyes and hear my pretty passing chords
3.
you’ve got fifteen reasons not to go outside and every one of those tendencies is easily justified but you’ve got me whatever that might mean to you and i've got ten gifted fingers that long for education and a mind like a sieve trying to retain an aspiration but i do love you whatever that might mean to you and you go a long way down i’ve got a long way to go you go a long way down i’ve got a long long way to get down there with you you cut all ties with the circles you’ve averted but you give yourself completely to the people who deserve it you’re the right kind of kind though you may not agree with me you’ve no sympathy at all for the affected and inflated but empathy in abundance for those who are mistreated and it makes you sick and i think i’m starting to get a feel for it you go a long way down… i can try and reassure you ‘til i’m blue in the face and i’m sure i’ll test the limits of your understanding and patience but you are a catalyst and so you will always suffer you get behind the eyes and not just under the skin and i can see the desperate situation we’re all living in and i am fortunate that you chose to blow my cover you go a long way down… i’m a man unabridged in a world without order people waiting to disappoint me around every corner but i do love you and i’ll wait for the end of the world with you
4.
the driven 03:59
young man get up be driven 'cause the driven are the ones who beat disease disease of the mind the soul and the body well you can sit around and count flies 'til you're done but i don't think son that you're gonna be ready self image in doubt tough titty gotta grow up cool down get with it dig deeper stand harder and mean it then slowly you begin to peel off your neuroses well you can sit around and count flies 'til you're done but i don't think son that you're gonna be ready to break - prove me wrong and i will never question you again break black out all thoughts of anguish no guilt no secrets no shame no jesus to free you from all condemnation stop for a minute try to take it all in
5.
golden age 03:38
this is the golden age of what the fuck happened there are pages in the story that are overlapping cram seventeen pieces of gum in your mouth and see which one blows the biggest bubble if you can answer every question you're asked then we're really in trouble and if you cannot answer any at all then you're a heartless animal let's do some great things and fly off to an island and die unremembered you're dealing with a cynical minimalist in a therapy session if you can answer every question you're asked then we're really in trouble and if you cannot answer any at all then you're a heartless animal and the lion lost his pride when we tore out both his eyes 'cause we couldn't stand to see a grown man cry we are none of us scared we have none of us purpose we own none of us valuables and the lion lost his pride when we tore out both his eyes 'cause we couldn't stand to see
6.
an artist's heart can be black as the ink on a quill an artist's heart can be bleak as the blink of an eye it's feelings are paper it's doing it to us right now say the world's an abomination but won't raise a fist for fear of breaking it's fingers patience child as the rush of the mob carries on keep a close eye on the carryings on of the mob batting their lashes robbing you blind of the chances that people like you born years ago were afforded because back then you were all special lifted high on the shoulders of the beaten these weary times are tired and in need of respite these weary lives are looking for a means to their ends family incomes fed into lotto machines need is the gateway misfortunes' the thing to ease you into these transgressions lifted high on the shoulders of the beaten down put on your snug bell bottoms and go down behind the bank twenty-one selling LSD to fifteen year old thugs it's easy to be a wise man when you're hanging out with the kids got out in time with most of your mind without turning into a skid can't say how lucky i've been
7.
i can't promise anything to anyone at anytime but i want you all to love me and i can't think of everything for everyone all of the time but i want you all to trust me this is not a complaint this is just an admission every time i get out of hawk i go into remission trying to wrap your arms around the promise of a good intention you're gonna cry every time i deny something's wrong you're only human - say that you are i am only paper and steel whalebone and nickel i am only feeling and tone and my grasp is tenuous at best speaking of feeling and tone they're the ones i love the best every lover i've known becomes a house guest trying to wrap your arms around... what are you going to tell yourself when i'm not there the best way to say you understand is to say you don't care
8.
company halt 03:46
forgive them their indiscretions forgive them their lack of direction forgive them their need for interaction forgive them their useless erections paid a young date to stand o'er his face and urinate let the shame and the tears of forty-five years run down his face paid to erase the pages of faces that blew away forgive them their reprimanding reliving the fall of understanding for betraying the doubts of their rational minds without question forgive them their disconnection company halt i think we're all making a big mistake emptied out bodies and emptied out rounds communicate retreat retreat what we have been told is not really how things are taking shape company halt
9.
cities 03:26
walk hot headed into situations collapse the walls of the maze seek hot blooded for reciprocation you are a man of your days chalk dust elements of education to what do you aspire as long as you remain an honest addict nobody can call you a liar we are cities born and raised drunk schmuck grabbing all available assets dance hall irrelevance demotes the classes bathroom etiquette leaves you pantsless oh you're a real prize all is charity to thine own purpose drink all merchandise in alley store fronts morning time melancholy out the back door 'cause i'm the king of the world we are cities born and raised you are an animal waiting to happen
10.
i and many like me children terrified doing what was asked of us no questions no reply placed on vessels impressionable ageless the shoreline pushed the distance and the bottom disappeared i am not certain when it happened but somewhere along the way i lost my depth perception i and many of me cared not to think of what it is where it's from where it's going where it's been and what it does and why it's even here was it always there for us to use and are we only here to use it are we just are we kind am i kind i and i alone am responsible for everything every insect trampled on and every blade of grass i alone am guilty of falling under mass hypnosis apathetic narcissism strangling my pacifism independently wrapped in an arrogant body i am sorry i'll try harder i will try it's just a post-it note it's just a pencil shaving it's just a bunch of batteries it's just an empty seat and an old deflated tire an old unwanted memory it's just another show just one more place to go it's only one more stop along the way it's just an autograph an audio cassette it's just another thing to throw away

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jon acknowledges the financial support of the government of canada through the department of canadian heritage (canada music fund) and of canada's private radio broadcasters

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released May 21, 2008

produced by jon epworth

mike kuehn: drums (a cormorant,the beaten down,a post-it note)

mike belyea: drums (golden age,say you don't care,cities)

matt mccullough:bass (a cormorant,long way down,the beaten down,a post-it note)

shane kerr: bass (golden age,say you don't care)

jason vautour: lead guitar(golden age,say you don't care,cities)

thomas hammerton: piano(a cormorant,long way down,the beaten down,a post-it note)

alex andresen: saxophone, flute(long way down, a post-it-note)

don murray: trumpet(a post-it note)

fiona stewart: violin(a cormorant)

maylee todd: harp(a post-it note)

jon: everything else
tracks 1,3,5,10 engineered by mike kuehn and jon epworth; 5,7,9 engineered by craig sperry and jon epworth; 2,4,8 by jon epworth tracks 3,10 mixed by mike keuhn; all other tracks mixed by laurence currie
mastered by noah mintz

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